Without fail...

Now you all know I try and keep this blog as hilarious as...well as I am everyday, however once in a while things happen, even to me, that make us look inside ourselves and deal with things and life, I used to party or have sex or laugh the pain away, mainly the first two, but I want to do things differently this time, so deal with the fact that this wont be a funny entry but will maybe let you get to know the real me better, The Dougie Fresh only a handful of people know...

While the Killer Mr brightside remix that Spence first found for me, plays in the background, I think of how happy & sad it makes me, how many emotions and events are attached to it, and now I'm adding two more one happy & one sad. The weather today couldn't match my mood any better, cloudy overcast emotions, rain drops ranging from a single tear to huge sobs, the beat of the city and my heart both a little slower & exposed to the elements we cannot control... It always seems to rain after I have a break up, well not every time but every time I'm sad about it, most of the boyfriends I dump i don't feel bad about, but now and again you meet some one and fall in love and that person changes you forever and for reasons that aren't always bad or anyones fault it doesn't work out, this is why personal days were invented, but hopefully it makes you a better person.

Someone once told me there are no failed relationships just learning experiences, I repeated this to him after his last break up and he never recalled saying it (Really Darrin, Really!? ) but its good advice and true, I'm a better person for everyone of my friendships and relationships, and I hope they all think the same. Enjoy the rain and the day. Loves